Please just SLOW down!

I love Fall so much and I cannot tell you how sad I am that we are almost at Thanksgiving already. I love the holidays, family, fun, cooler weather, the smells of the holidays. I am so sad and I am screaming SLOW DOWN! It is all going far too fast and I feel like I am not taking in every moment and I really need to do that. It is one thing I tend not to do on a frequesnt basis. So I need to slow down myself too.

Oh boy do I have a gripe beyond all gripes! OK so Josh has been getting evaluated by speech therapy via the state program. Well, it is a birth to 3 program and Josh is already 30 months. So he only has a few months left. It looks like he will qualify based on speech. Just a sidenote, he is operating at a 4 year old level (very smart) he just doesn't talk. SO the therapist told us to go ahead and call the school district and talk to them about getting Josh in to be evaluated. So I call and oh my gosh. The person that answered the phone and took the appointment barely spoke English herself. I kept having to ask her to repeat things and spell them out. She wasn't even saying English words correctly. I was so angry. I am going through with the appointment because I am going to hope it is not her that is teaching. I am really hoping she only took down the appointment and that the actual therapist is an English speaker.
Grr!

OK so I think I am just blind or something. Prop 102 and Californias Prop 8. What am I missing here? Redefining marriage. What does that mean? How would it effect me and my marriage? There is seems to be so much No on 102 and No on 8 and I think I am missing the point. With all the literature material and commericals you would think I would have gotten "it" but I didn't and I don't. What do I care if gay people get married? How would it hurt me or my children? I am so totally lost on this issue.
I am very angry with Arkansas passing the prop that states gays cannot adopt. Why not? Have they been proven to be unfit parents? I am certainly in no position to adopt some of these children, especially the special needs ones, but if someone loving, financially and mentally stable can, why not???? Shoot I would rather them adopt them than some of these jerks that have children naturally. People who hurt their children, teens not able to support them, girls that leave them in trashcans, seriously, AK are you backwards or what? Each of those people that voted on that ban, I have to wonder, are YOU willing to take in some of those unwanted children you just put into the an already overloaded social system? Since you do not want a gay person to have them then are you saying YOU will take in and love and provide for those children now? Selfish and disgusting. AK get your head out already.

Hellboy 2, excellent! I loved Hellboy 1 and 2 was even better.
Oh, GTG Jake is calling me. BBL.

So anyway, I just took the kids to the park. That was nice. It was quiet and cool and I talkedwith a few very nice moms. The kids had fun! I brought them home, fed them lunch and put them down for a nap.

I know naps are supposed to be for children but I really think they are for moms. Taking naps or giving naps, either way, good for moms.

So thehouse is all peaceful right now.
I made some Rice Crispy Treats. As I was pouring the box out, the toy fell out. I didn't realize any company still did toys. It was a cool Snap, Crackle, and Pop Pedometer. I know you are supposed to take 10,000 steps a day or something like that. So I put it on. Here is the best part, because I have a little extra jiggle in my walk, it counts as two steps sometimes! Oh yea baby, being fat paying off once again! I got new boobs from my fat and now extra exercise too, how can you beat that? I did "125" steps in about an hour. Some of that was cooking my lunch and going up for seconds on the Rice Crispy Treats. I know, shameful. I will pay for it someday soon, I know that. No need to lecture me.

On the moms board the question was asked "what are you thankful for" I said Xanax. Everyone said their health and family...I figure that is a given. I am SO incredibly thankful. First, I found the perfect husband. That in itself, incredible. He is wonderful to me and a wonderful father. Second, I was able to have Josh. What a miracle. Then to have Jake? WOW! What an incredible surprise and gift. I am SO lucky! And to have found and survived (so far) cancer. My Mom has gotten in with the Standford Dr. which is awesome. My sister is seeing a breast specialist on the 5th and I am happy about that. Because of my BRCA2+ status my Uncles are now receiving closer monitoring on their health and I am so thankful for that. My husband is well-employed, my children and so happy and healthy, and my Xanax gets me through the toughest of times. I am thankful to my Xanax for getting me to sleep every night. I am thankful it is there to get me through what is about to be a very tough menopause which will keep me alive longer. I will no longer be able to have children, I will go through some tough mood swings and probably a lot of depression and hopefully my Xanax will get me through it all. I would like to live to see my children grow up and if that means no more girl parts, than I guess thats what it is. I am thankful for Xanax :)