SO much going on!

OK aside from the constant sleeping, I have so much going on. If I could stop with the 2-3 hour naps I may actually be able to get some things done. But as always, I just cannot help myself. I go up to put the boys down for their naps and my bed calls my name. I have tried, "oh I will just lay down for a minute and rest", two hours later I shamefully pour myself out of bed. I've tried "ok sleep but only for 30 minutes", again, 2 hours later sometimes 3 hours, I shamefully get myself up and out of bed. It is really bad. I'm going to try something new tonight. I simply cannot function like this. Too much of my free time is being eaten up by sleeping. Is this what menopause does? I see my doctors all in the next few weeks. I have lots of questions!

Friday was Mom's Night Out. Can I just say, I had a blast? It was in beautiful Verrado at Grazie. It was Patricia, Rachel, Nicole, and myself. I did not want to leave. I definately dominated the conversation. I was just aching to talk I think. And they kindly listened, with patience, as I babbled on about I don't know what. I cannot wait for the next one.

OK so as you can see, I am going to be an Aunt. I know, if your jaw has dropped to the floor, you can imagine how my mom and I feel. My sister vowed to never have children. Well, when I came up positive for breast cancer and BRCA2 and then she found out that she is BRCA 2+ as well, that changed everything. I could not be happier. So this is how it went. She confessed to me that she was "late", so I said and are you going to take a test? She said she would get around to it. She flew here to take care of me and she herself was sick with a cold. I felt so bad. The sacrafices my family has made for me my whole life. How do you ever say "thanks"? Just a simple word and never as effective as I want it to be. So I stated to her that I too had a cold with both boys when I was first pregnant. So phone calls from the hospital to check in at home were always met with "when are you going to test?". The same answer, "I don't know". Finally the last night in the hospital I said "OK Lisa, tomorrow when you pick me up, I am making you test". The next day she came to get me and I was brushing my teeth. She laid the tests in front of me. I about fainted. I wanted to scream but considering I was in the hospital, it took everything I had not to for fewar of scaring the RN's. Well, I fell apart. I do not know who to be happier for. Me, I am goig to be a first time Aunt, my sister and Randy for bringing another beautiful baby into this world, my Mom for getting another grandchild, Peggy for getting a grandchild 4 months after the husband she spent 50 years with died, my children who will have a cousin close in age. I mean, Lisa and Randy have created a whole new level to several families and I am so excited! I told Charlie today, I need to make sure I do not hog the baby too much. I can see myself wanting to be close to the baby all the time. I was like that with our kids too. Actually we both were. We would take turns having the babies sleep on us or in our arms. I never like to put them down. I get very attached and so does Charlie. So I need to make sure I let go a little and just play Aunt and not Mom. It is going to be very hard.
Charlie's Mom has agreed to come out and watch the boys while I, yes ME, as in Andi, will get on a plane and see my sister. Did you read that? A PLANE, as in airplane, wings, flying tube. I feel ok about it. I like to think the Lexapro has me straight. We will see when I actually get there what happens to me. I have to be there. I just have to and with all my being, I will be there.
So you saw the video of Mom and how happy she was. Well, Lisa had called Randy on the way to pick me up and she said "Happy New Year Daddy". Typical male "what?". Repeat "Happy New Year daddy"...pause...."are you trying to tell me something?"...."Ummm yea....I'm pregnant" So he stayed up all night and did internet research. Called her every 30 minutes all day long reminding her to do this and that and don't do this and that. She was due to leave on Wednesday but I told her I was fine and to get her tail home. Then Randy sent her flowers.....say it together......awwwwwww. So she got a ticket and left on Saturday. She surprised him....say it again......awwwwww. I was able to give my sister up to her husband but it was not without complaint. I miss her. I would do just about anything to have her and my Mom here. When I cannot sleep I sit and think about if I ever won the lotto what I would do. It is one of my favorite things to think about. I would get whatever my sister wanted to make her move, get my Mom a nice house and whatever she wanted all so we could be together. It is the one thing I want most and it is the one thing I am not sure I will ever get. I am so jealous of families who live close together. I see them at restaurants and such and I just sit and wish it was me.

So....ha....Charlie has been dreaming about working for a gaming company. He loves EA and that is where he does his community weekends where he plays and tests games. Well, there is an opening for him in Dundee Scotland. So they are sending him the paperwork for a work Visa and we will go from there. Scotland? Holy cow! Now how would I get my Dane over there?

OK BBL if I can.