What's so positive about positive?

Take the word positive and you think happy thoughts. Heck, when I saw a positive pregnancy test I was about over the moon with Josh. All that hard work finally paid off.

With Jake is was "oh my gosh!" with shock and oh so happy that I got pregnant on my own.

Ever since those, the two happiest moments of my life, the word "positive" just has not been the same. Positive for breast cancer, positive for MRSA, positive for anemia, and now positive for BRCA2. Yup, confirmed, I am genetically predisposed for cancer. Big shock. We knew it ran in the family and I am thankful that I live in a time where we can test the genetic defect where my cancer lies. I got it 100% from my mother whom likely got it 100% from her mother. It is all part of the Eastern Jewish heritage. I am proudly Jewish but wow that cancer is something else in our culture. So Chelsea has a 50% and the boys are at risk for prostate cancer as well as breast cancer. Though breast cancer is not as prevalant in men and they do not test them until their 40's. Prostate cancer does run in the family and they will need to be very careful. Thankfully prostate cancer is easily tested for and easily managed. So I am thankful for that! If either one has a daughter though, she is at risk if either son is a carrier of my BRCA2. So that is where we are with that.

On a another "positive" note. My stomach problem is not the hernia we thought but rather a very large seroma. A seroma is a fluid collection. It is laying on top of my stomach and I look 6 months pregnant. So when I go in for the hysterectomy, I will have that drained and a drain will likely be put in for about 3 weeks. Same with the breast. Because it died, they will put another drain in. If only you knew how I felt about drains. They are painful, uncomfortable, inconvenient, and I hate them!

Charlie has been at PAX all weekend. Sounds like he is having fun. Or least I hope so. Heck, if I were away from all this for 3 days, I would be having fun even I were sitting doing nothing. But here or wherever, it doesn't matter. Nothing is a vacay for me lately. My tummy is uncomfortable, my boobs are painful, I am terribly scarred, and bald. So a vacay wouldn't be that great for me. May as well sit here and suffer with screaming kids, a dog with uncontrollable diarrhea, a dying cat the vomits daily and screams all day, and a mess I cannot get under control. Someday I will get to vacation. I think the last time I went was before Josh was born. Yup, July 4. Las Vegas, 2005. Then I went to see my grandfather like 3 or 4 times before he passed away. Hardly a vacation.
Chelsea kept wanting to call people all weekend but everyone had plans but she and I. My Mom had her brother over from Albuquerque so they were out a lot. Charlie was at PAX. Charlie's Mom was at her lake house with 13 other people. So she had no one to call all weekend. We just sat here and watch horrible TV. They assume everyone has friends and family to spend time with so they play the worst TV. There was a Jame Bond festival. I watched Jaws Friday night. Yesterday I bought a DVD player and rented Atonement (horrible movie) and Becoming Jane (OK at best movie).
That's been about it for the whole weekend. Changed lots of diapers. Ate too much fast food. Cleaned. Did laundry. Which is everything I will do the rest of the week. I have no plans. No Dr. appointments. Just going to sit here and clean in one way shape or form.

Spam. I know everyone gets it but it has taken over my email. Gmail is great because it does filter 99% of it. But my regular email addresses are completely flooded. We finally had to shut down one of my email addresses altogether. I don't miss it, few people wrote me on that account. However, my other account I have to keep open for business purposes. What a nightmare it is.
I wish something could be done but I know there are very few things the law can do to stop it. However, the first arrest based on spam was made here about 8 months ago. I am sure many people could be heard cheering! I have not heard of another arrest since. Too bad.
I happen to watch a show about spam. They said that just the 10% of people that do click the ads has lead to a multi-billion dollar industry. So with those kind of numbers, I seriously doubt we will ever see an end to it. Just sucks! I hate it!
Mom said she is even hit with really bad spam at her company email. With all the money in big corporations and they can't stop it, there is no hope for me. So I will continue to mark as junk and delete. I wonder how many hours will have accrued in spam deletion by the time I die.